"You're Prettier When You Smile #4" by Antoinette Cauley


This painting is #4 in a running series I started in Berlin called "You're Prettier When You Smile." These works call into question societies obsession with women existing to be aesthetically pleasing for the viewing pleasure of others even when it causes women discomfort, leads to harassment and oftentimes violence.

This painting specifically ties in the two cultures of my subject, Roicia, who is Afro-Indigenous and represents both of her cultures so beautifully. 

When I started this painting I wasn't sure which direction I'd go but I listened to that little voice inside that's like a compass and ended up with a powerful piece that told a potent story. This work originally debuted in Berlin for part 1 of "I Do It For The HOOD." and was aquired by a collector in Germany.

At the exhibition in Germany, I shared details and statistics about the red hand which symbolizes missing and murdered Indigenous women. My European audience was shocked and pained to learn what is happening in the U.S. So many of them had no idea and I also think so many in my homeland really have no idea what's happening. 

The turquoise grill in her mouth is a fusion of her two cultures and is also meant to be a symbol of the power in her and so many other womens voices.

More about my subject, Roicia:

Roicia Banks Stewart is social worker and a pilar in her communities. She founded the Social Roots Foundation aimed at providing opportunities and resources for under served Indigenous and African American children and families and to empower BIPOC communities through the implementation of service initiatives throughout the Greater Phoenix Metropolitan Area. Currently, she is gearing up to host her third annual mental health summit for African American women in Phoenix in January and continues to fight for the well being of so many of us.

Roicia recently started a scholarship fund that is named after and dedicated to her mother who lost her battle to COVID-19 February 6, 2021. Tribal communities received little to no federal assistance to help prevent the spread of COVID-19 and as a result, the casualties were countless.The Bernice Kaibetony Scholarship is dedicated to all of our Indigenous relatives who lost their battle to COVID-19 during the global pandemic. 

A portion of the proceeds from these limited edition prints will be donated to the Bernice Kaibetony Scolarship fund which aids Black and Indigenous women who are entering the mental health field.

"You're Prettier When You Smile #4"

8x8"

Acrylic on Canvas

Sold.

Limited edition signed & numbered prints available via my online store.

32+2 Black Owned Businesses To Start Supporting This Juneteenth by Antoinette Cauley

This Juneteenth is all about economics over here! Although today is a celebration of freedom from slavery, Black America cannot be truly liberated without economic equality. As the U.S. still has yet to account for its original sins (I speak for my Native + Indigenous brothers & sisters here too) and give Black descendants of American slaves reparations, this Juneteenth I want to encourage everyone to start supporting & investing in Black owned businesses and creators. This is a way of helping to create a more equitable future for Black Americans. Below is a list of 32 Black Owned businesses & creators who I have invested in and/ or supported, as well as 2 B.O.B.’s on my radar as I stack some coins just for them!

Happy Juneteenth Y’all!


The 32 + 2 List


Life + The Necessities 

  1. South Mountain Services- Insurance (Home, Life, Renters, Car & Business insurance)

  2. Desert Wall security- Private/ Event Seccurity

  3. Grassrootz Book Store- Black Liturature & Books 

  4. Archwood Market- Shopping

  5. Therapy for Black Girls- Podcast

  6. Balanced Black Girl- Podcast

  7. Social Roots- Mental Health Wellness/ Social Work

    My Self Love Things (Wellness + Beauty)

  8. Guided Body Mami- Personal Training- (Berlin)

  9. Track Club Fitness- Gym

  10. Isoholistics- Nutritionist Samirah Miller

  11. Chic Artistry Studio- Facials, waxing, skin care

  12. Bilen Collective- Brows

  13. Balaros Hair Salon- Hair (Blow Outs)

  14. Curly Sister Inc.- Resources for curly hair

  15. MadSkillz Salon- Nails

  16. Fenty Beauty - Makeup + Face wash


    Art + Entertainment 

  17. Shoreigh Williams- Tattoos, Fashion, Art 

  18. Onyx Art Gallery- Art Exhibitions & Events

  19. Iroc Daniels and Marmera Creative- Movies & Film

  20. Desiree White- Live Music & Vocal Coaching

  21. The Roosevelt Tape with Natasha Castles- Radio & Good Music

  22. Aja Dotson- Photographer (Berlin)

  23. Sistas Who Kill- Podcast

  24. Black and Cold: True Crime Podcast- Podcast


    Food, treats & Beverages

  25. Sugar Star Sweet Treats- Cake, Cookies & Other Baked Goods

  26. The Larder + the Delta- Downtown Dining

  27. Early bird Vegan- Brunch, Lunch & Smoothies

  28. Chef Monique- My favorite Private Chef


    Fashion & Accessories

  29. Telfar- Purses

  30. Merryn Alaka- Jewelry

  31. Marathon Clothing- Streetwear

  32. Rebdolls- Plus Size Fashion


    Next To Add To My List

  33. Warren Hampton- Luxury Purses 

  34. Straw and Wool- The Dopest Hats Ever


Have a Black owned business you think I should support? Drop the name and/ or link in the comments below and I’ll check them out!

Exit Interview: 2 Page Spread in Phoenix Magazine on my Two Year German Anniversary! by Antoinette Cauley

Today Marks Two Years Since I hopped on a Flight and Moved to Germany.

Sometimes its hard to believe that I made a twelve year long dream come to life and moved to Europe to further my art career. I honestly had never even been to Germany before and had never lived anywhere but Arizona. BUT. If there’s one thing I am always going to do, it’s bet on myself!

I’ve already held my first solo exhibition in Berlin and continue to expand within Germany and beyond. What a wonderful way to celebrate today by sharing the latest addition of PHOENIX Magazine in which I have a two page spread for a story titled “Exit Interviews” that originally aired on NPR about Phoenicians who moved to further their career. You can catch me on page 142 and read more about why I left Phoenix for Germany and maybe even find out if I’m coming back... Listen to the original/ full interview by clicking here.

As always, thank you for supporting my art. Be sure to follow and tag me when you grab a copy of the magazine!

This was my first big magazine shoot in Berlin and it was a beautiful experience. I had the opportunity to conceptualize and shoot with my dear friend A’ja Dotson (pictured below). A’ja hails from Seattle/ Oakland and has lived and worked in Berlin for over four years. She is a highly skilled and visionary photographer that I knew could capture me in a powerful way. It was such a joy to work with her. Be sure to follow and support her work by clicking here!

What I Thought Destroyed Me. by Antoinette Cauley

The Back Story:

Oftentimes people want to know what brought me to Germany from Phoenix, AZ and what my experience has been. There are lots of assumptions of what my life in Europe is like. People tend to romanticize my life as an artist working across continents based on the things we, as Americans, have been taught about Europe. But what outwardly appears to be romantic to those who watch my journey, inwardly felt as if it had destroyed me.

There are details of my first year in Berlin that are too painful to share outside of those closest to me. There are things that when I speak about them, always bring sorrowful tears to my eyes. It was no easy feat moving to Germany during the pandemic, alone, during winter all in hopes of furthering my career and betting on myself. My mental health took the largest hit of my life and it seems at times as if I am still recovering from those wounds to this day.

From the moment I arrived I was in survival mode. It was cold, snowing, dark, the country was in a strict lock-down and I was alone… so alone. So, in order to help me process my emotions and feelings during this time period, I slowly created this triptych that chronicled a slow mental breakdown of sorts that I had in Berlin.


The Breakdown:

Working with a base color of a cool gray, I aimed to reflect the sorrowful gray tones of the Berlin sky. The locals know this shade all too well and during the winter months. It is a trigger to some as they know that the turning of the skies means the onset of seasonal depression.

While some locals disagree, one of the most “beautiful” things about Berlin is how saturated the city walls are with graffiti. It. Is. EVERYWHERE. And, on everything. I was told that after the war, artists wanted to take their city back and this was a visible way of doing so. The grafiti is such an important element of the city that I wanted to pay homage to it through my looser than normal brushstrokes in combination with vibrant and bold colors. This element also allowed me to show the beautiful chaos that was running amok inside of me during my transition.

Some pieces of the first and second painting are left raw, intentionally to serve as a sense of vulnerability and brokenness I felt as I struggled to cope with my isolation and depression during my first several months in Germany. Each piece captures a moment in time- from breakdown to rebuild.

The Conclusion:

Each painting dances with each other in a rhythm that tells a story of pain to peace. It is a story that many of us are familiar with and in which many of us are survivors of. It is my story of being destroyed, burned to the ground but just like the Phoenix of legend, rising from the ashes in a burst of flames, illuminating all that is around me. There is no coincidence that I was born in the city of Phoenix. There is a light inside of me, a fire that burns too brightly to ever be extinguished. It took me moving across the world to realize just what was in me… I’m glad I found it.

This original triptych is available for purchase via this link. You can also find limited edition signed and numbered prints of this triptych by clicking here.

As always, thank you for supporting my journey and believing in me. Be sure to drop a comment below or on my Instagram (@AntoinetteCauley) and be sure to visit my website AntoinetteCauley.Com

A DOPE And Special New Painting: No Stone Unflipped by Antoinette Cauley

When I wrapped up my international exhibition “Blackbird Fly” in early 2022 I suddenly found myself unable to paint due to lack of inspiration. That all changed when I was approached by one of my favorite artists, Bar Abba, in regards to his up and coming project  “No Stone Unflipped”. I was instantly drawn in.  It was his ability to tell a powerful story mixed with his messages, super dope beats and his obvious talent. I knew that this was a project I had to be a part of.  

Bar Abba (@protectandgrow)

I spent a lot of time listening to “No Stone Unflipped” and letting the ideas come naturally to me, always thoroughly exploring each as they came. I truly love this album and so the ideas really flowed in abundance as I listened to each track. We spent time brainstorming and conceptualizing over the course of a few months until finally it all came together in such an effortless way. 

Once I started to work on this piece, I felt as if I had truly found my artistic groove again (right click the images above to see my progress shots.) This piece pushed me to the creative heights I am meant to climb and reminded me of the tremendous amount of detail I am capable of. It was a much needed kick start to a new season of painting for me.

The image depicts a bare chested Bar Abba, covered in his tattoos, illuminating a hologram of the city of Phoenix in one hand and holding something mysterious in the other. As with many of my works, there are SO many details and intricacies in this piece. The tattoos alone tell a story within the large story of this image. I could get into the symbols and deeper meaning of this piece but instead I will let you all listen to “No Stone Unflipped” and hear the story yourself!

The final painting

It was truly a privilege to work on this project with Bar Abba and create something magical to share with the world. Be sure to follow him on instagram (@protectandgrow) and let me know what you think of the artwork and the album on my Instagram (@antoinettecauley) or in the comment section below!


Interested in having your own commission work done by Antoinette Cauley? Send all inquiries to info@antoinetteCauleyArt.Com

Black Girl Excellence: Opening the President’s Welcome Address at MCC by Antoinette Cauley

Photo by Iva Kozeli

I recently had the privilege of meeting Dr. Tammy Robinson, Mesa Community College’s first Black President. When we met I shared some of my story and what MCC meant to me. I spoke about how my professors impacted my career as an artist and talked about how MCC's Fine Art program molded me into the artist I am today. We instantly connected through the similarities in our journeys as first generation college students who defied the odds and stepped into greatness. During this meeting my story resonated so much with Dr. Robinson that she asked me to open her President's Welcome Address with a speech of my own. What a surprise and a complete honor!

You can watch the speech now on youtube and catch all of the Black Girl Magic & Excellence from two powerful Women.

"The Lights Will Lead You There: My Phoenix Suns Comission" by Antoinette Cauley

The Intro: I’m Shook!

I will literally always remember the moment in October 2020 when I was sitting at a red light and happened to look down at my phone. I had an email notification from… the Phoenix Suns? “This can’t be real.” I thought. I pulled over and opened the email only to read that the team was interested in potentially commissioning me for a painting that told the story of the Black history of Arizona.

I was asked to submit a short written proposal breaking down what I would like to create and after their review they would let me know if they wanted to move forward. So me being me, I knew a written proposal would not do my ideas justice and I needed them to not only see what I was trying to do, but to feel it. So I spent a weekend researching and sketching. I submitted a sketch and full breakdown of every little detail. I honestly thought to myself “Antoinette, why are you being so extra? They asked for a brief outline and you are giving them all of this? Girl… they might think you are too much!”

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I was really nervous about my proposal. I wasn't sure if they would like it or if they would think I was too much and not want to work with me. But, it was actually the opposite. They loved my proposal so much that not only did Arizona State historians not ask me to change any details, but they ended up using my proposal as an example for what they wanted from other artists.

At the time I had been planning to go to Germany for an artist residency in January of 2021 and I had to convince the Suns to still allow me to paint the piece in my studio in Berlin. They agreed to mail the canvas to me as long as I could deliver video footage and handle shipping back. I definitely underestimated the stress, anxiety and depression I would experience in my first months in Berlin. All of these things made it exceptionally hard for me to work on this piece. I had to keep reminding myself how important it was not only for me but for my city and for the Black community in Phoenix. With a ton of determination and hyperfocus, I was able to complete it and ship it off to Arizona!

The Finished Painting:

“The Lights Will Lead You There” Acrylic on Canvas, 60”x96” (5x8ft)

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The Symbolism and Breakdown:

For this painting I wanted to put an emphasis on South Phoenix. I spent a lot of my youth in South Phoenix and it's always had a big piece of my heart. In my research I learned that Black Phoenicians were segregated to the South Side until the 70’s. The South Mountain lights were a must as I've always seen them as a guide home. I also included two real kids from South Phoenix because they represent our future. Jade (who has posed for several paintings of mine including the infamous Tupac piece) is wearing a Bridget Pettis jersey. Bridget was a player and coach for the Phoenix Mercury and recently founded a ten acre community garden on the South Side. She represents not only pieces of Phoenix’s history, but she represents what is happening now. Jade is also holding a fox stuffed animal, a tribute to Fred Snowden aka "The Fox", the first Black head coach for U of A and for any university basketball team in the states.

LJ is wearing a Charlie Scott Jersey. Charlie Scott was the first Black Phoenix Suns player (1970) and the first Black player for North Carolina, opening doors for players like Michael Jordan and Vince Carter to eventually play for the school.

I included a sun that replicates the Civil right monument at Eastlake Park. As a staple of the Black community and a civil rights hub in the 60’s, East Lake Park was a must to include in this piece. In the distance is an image of George Washington Carver High School, the first Black school in Arizona. There are also pine trees to represent McNary, AZ, the first Black city in Arizona back in the 60s.

While there is so much more to the Black history of Arizona, I did my best to include as much as I could in this piece while staying true to my voice.

What Makes This Painting Extra Special For Me:

First of all, what a total honor to be asked by my hometown NBA team to create a piece that represents my culture in my home state of their arena. I am still kind of blown away by the fact that I actually was commissioned by the Phoenix Suns. This piece was special for so many reasons but one thing I have reflected a lot on is my love of basketball as a youth and how much it influenced my work and my hustle. I literally found ways as a teenager to use my art to meet some of my absolute favorite NBA and And1 players including Tracy McGrady, Hot Sauce and so many more. Life was so hard growing up for a multitude of reasons but my art and my hustle gave me meaning, purpose and something positive to focus on.

I was OBSESSED with basketball when I was a teenager. Every morning I would wake up and watch NBA TV while I got ready for school and every game I could watch, I did. I played basketball for a few years and even went on to coach in my early 20’s. My first major commission came when I was 15 years old and I was asked by an NBA agent to create a portrait of five of his players. Now, seventeen years later I have a painting hanging in the Phoenix Suns Arena. What a full circle moment! 

My painting is a part of the Suns Cultural Arena Wall that just opened Friday, May 7th. It is one of four paintings done by four different artists representing four different cultures in Arizona. I can't explain how amazing it felt to see a picture of it for the first time! since I was not able to be there to see it in person before the public, I invited Jade, LJ and their family to go in my place. It was a beautiful thing to see these kids and their family in front of the painting.

In Conclusion:

It's been hard AF adjusting to things in Germany. I can’t even begin to explain how difficult this transition has been for me. It is by far one of the hardest things I've ever done. But knowing that my painting is hanging back in Phoenix in the arena reminds me that home is always there waiting for me and cheering me on. This reminds me that Phoenix has me up on its shoulders and will always champion for me no matter where I am in the world.

I'm just really honored and humbled in this moment. I am a little overwhelmed with emotions. But just really grateful. To the Phoenix Suns and to everyone who has ever supported me, thank you.

Dear Mr. Baldwin, by Antoinette Cauley

The Intro:

When I first sat down to write this blog I really struggled with what I was going to say and how I was going to say it. I felt this immense pressure to write something that would be awe-inspiring, strong and powerful. This is one of the most important projects of my career thus far and so the weight on my shoulders has been heavy. But… I realized that I just need to tell my story in the most authentic way possible as I always do. You can take from it what you need and feel free to leave behind what you don't.

The Call:

A couple of months ago I received a phone call from my friend Jason Harvey. This was around the time of the nationwide protests sparked by the murder of George Floyd at the hands of the police. I had been feeling (like so many Black Americans) overwhelmed, anxiety-ridden and oh so exhausted. It was all so much to process. On top of the hurt and heightened emotions, I unexpectedly found myself fighting to not become tokenized. 

Individuals and companies began to reach out to me (and so many other of my Black artist friends) left and right for an array of things centered around the protests. Things like (Black Lives Matter) murals, collaborations and so much more. I however was not interested in becoming anyone’s token Black artist. I didn’t want to be the reason they could capitalize on the current Black Lives Matter movement or be used to soothe their own newfound guilt. I have been fighting too hard and for too long to allow my work to be reduced down to that. 

For years I have been pushing for Black representation through my artwork. I felt that so many of these people suddenly popping up as a result of the protests were missing some very important points. Just by existing, I am a threat to white supremacy. Just by existing, I am a threat to all who contribute to the oppression of people of color in America. Just by existing, I am a part of the change we as a people need. I and so many others like me have been fighting for change with our respective gifts long before America seemed to wake from a color-blind slumber.

So, when I picked up the phone the day Jason called me, I had a feeling we were both experiencing similar frustration. I honestly had no idea the magnitude of the journey we would embark upon after only a twenty-minute phone call. 

The Vision:

During our call, Jason explained to me that just the day before he was standing across from a building he owns on Central and Roosevelt (that has a giant painting of Teddy Roosevelt on the side) passing out water bottles at the protests in Phoenix. And like so many Black Americans he had felt this overwhelming need to do something. Something more.

Jason had experienced a multitude of racism growing up in Prescott, AZ, and was now in a position to create an impact within the Black community and beyond. He told me that he was looking up at his building with this looping thought of “I have an opportunity to make some real change here and I have to do something about it.” He then called me.

Initially, Jason told me that he wanted me to create a painting (potentially of Martin Luther King) to then plaster nine stories high on the Northside of the building for the entire city to see. This was it. For the first time since the protests began someone, who I knew and trusted, had come to me with a heartfelt and sincere opportunity to empower the Black community and inspire all who reside within the city.

Over the course of the next two to three days Jason and I discussed whether or not we should go with MLK or if we should choose another Black prominent figure. After throwing out a variety of names and ideas, it suddenly hit me. The inspiration came from an unexpected place during a trip around the world seven months prior.  I knew exactly who I needed to paint.

Building Ten-O-One on the Northeast corner of Central and Roosevelt

Building Ten-O-One on the Northeast corner of Central and Roosevelt

The Inspiration (Oh Paris, How I've Missed You):

How and why I arrived in Paris, seven months ago, is a beautiful story in and of itself; The trip could easily make its way to the big screen, in any major city in the world, and would not disappoint. I hope to share it with you all one day soon.

During my time in France, I had a major realization that I find more inspiration in connection with people and their stories than anything in the world. And so, this city that I have loved since I was a small child, unknowingly became the source of inspiration for this project. No painting in existence moves me in the way sitting with someone and listening to who they are can and does. It is the personal stories of so many that fuels my work. It is these people, their history, and their experiences that allow me to create masterpieces whose messages transcend age, race, and gender. It is no surprise that the people I met in Paris sparked so much inside of me that it is still spilling onto my canvas to this day.

Issy-Les-Moulineaux, France. Image taken by Antoinette Cauley.

Issy-Les-Moulineaux, France. Image taken by Antoinette Cauley.

The Tour

One of the best things I had the opportunity to experience in Paris was a one-on-one tour with Le Paris Noir. Le Paris Noir is a Black Parisian history tour that breaks down the history of Black French citizens, monuments, politics and so much more. During the tour, my tour guide, Kevi, asked me if I had heard of James Baldwin. I had in fact heard his name but I was not familiar with who he actually was. He proceeded to teach me about Mr. Baldwin and about his travels to Paris in the ‘40s to escape racism in America.

I have a vibrant memory of saying to Kevi, “I cannot believe we were never taught about him in school. But I can believe it.” Leaving incredibly inspired, I researched Mr. Baldwin and immediately fell in love with his passion and words. I read his books and watched countless videos of him speaking on the plight of the American Negro. I could feel his tiredness. I could relate to it. I understood the desire to run away to another country where I would feel safer and “free”.

The Conclusion:

After the continued back-and-forth with Jason regarding the subject of our project, ultimately Mr. Baldwin just made sense.

James Baldwin, an author, civil rights activist and a queer Black man embodies so many of us and could reach so many communities. Through his legacy, we could speak to the city and beyond. Through his memory, we could create something powerful and give little Black boys and girls a nine-story tall mirror in which they could see the larger than life possibilities waiting for them on the road ahead.

The Work:

I channeled the fire inside of him to create something magical. I spent a little over a month painting a 5ft. x 6ft. painting of James Baldwin. I took my time and enjoyed the process of making. I made sure to pace myself in order to capture the power I felt every time I heard James Baldwin speak. This painting has been scanned and blown up to be plastered nine stories high at Ten-O-One, the building on the corner of Central and Roosevelt. This piece will be up within the next week, or so.

The Change:

As I type this, I am holding back tears. I know I am a vessel for a greater message and my art is my voice. It is a complete honor to have worked on this project with Jason and to collectively do something that was true to who we are and what we stand for. This will be the largest piece of (Black) art by a Black artist in downtown Phoenix and, man, does that feel long overdue.

Statistically, I shouldn't be here. Statistically, I should not have been able to hop on that plane, travel to Paris alone, and learn about James Baldwin. Statistically, I should not be thriving in the fine arts industry. Statistically, my life should look opposite to what it looks like now. But I chose to write my own story. And now, so many other young Black artists in Phoenix won’t have to become a statistic either. They will have the representation and an example. Both things I so desperately craved as a young artist. This is how you make change. Change comes by empowering those around you. Change happens by providing platforms to the unheard to scream to the world. Change happens when you give the unheard an opportunity to be seen in a light that exposes their truest and most beautiful self.

I have said this before and I will say it again-

To my fellow artists of color, young, old, and everything in between, keep making noise. Keep pushing and fighting. Most of all, keep taking up space even when you were not given a seat at the table.

Antoinette Cauley putting the final touches on her painting.

Antoinette Cauley putting the final touches on her painting.

Dear Mr. Baldwin:

Dear Mr. Baldwin,

No piece I could have ever created could capture the full essence and power of who you were. Your light will forever illuminate the paths of Black Americans through the words you so graciously left us. As I one day soon embark on my own journey overseas to find a more peaceful home to make the work that is important to me, I will keep you and your words in my heart. Thank you for finding me in Paris all those months ago on that freezing Parisian morning and thank you for gracing the world with your presence. My only hope is that I made you proud.

With love,
Antoinette

James Baldwin

For more information on the project and/or media and project collaboration requests please visit Antoinette Cauley Art/James Baldwin